Tuesday, January 30, 2007

And so i ate


What a massacre at chota today. kept on eating, hot parathas dripping with butter, noodles and more parathas. I love eating i say. But then thanks to the slow metabolism i have i put on weight easy. Been a good day overall. Got my final GPA for the first term and got a 3.43 which is more than what i had calculated earlier. Anyways second term my grades will be headed in the southward direction so a decent performance in this term really helps.

Part of an interesting play, though only as a technician handling the lights aspect. Somehow never felt the urge to act. I respect what actors do but personally i find it very monotonous to repeat the same lines over and over again. Nothing against anyone just a personal opinion. Direction on the other hand is a totally different ball game. Something that i wanted to be at a certain point in my life. Then realised that it was more of a hobby than a profession. Though would definitely love to do it again if need be.

Got a hellish month ahead, with non stop classes and assignments. Need to stay alert and not slack as a good performance is required this term to keep my gpa within respectable boundaries. Will give a few case studies a shot. Even though one might not get selected the best thing is that it provides one with a lot learning. Every time one attempts to solve a case, he/she learns a hell lot about the sector specific to the case. For instance the IIM Lucknow case has probably taught me enough to equal all my learning's in this term. Its my favorite chacha, sriram chacha's birthday today and i prey to god that i remember to wish him in the morning. I keep forgetting these important things not because i do not care , it is simply because i am forgetful.

I believe it is in libran nature to be furiously active in bursts and lazy the remaining time. I typically display this behaviour and had read about it common to Libras in a book. Libra's are always supposed to retain their curves and hence are not generally thin. Sometimes i eat when i am in a slight melancholy mood. The reason for that maybe cause i might have to wait a little bit more before i meet my girl again. Sigh. Thus that explains things and so i ate.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Become your own teacher


Simply put , the title of the post means quite a bit, a thought presented to us by a visiting faculty whose profession is that of an account planner. Well anyways, came third at IIM Lucknow which ain't bad but not as good as the first 2 places. Nevertheless considering the lack of expertise in any of the domains on which we were made to compete i guess it is a good enough achievement. Back to campus classes engulfed me with full fury.

I am back to the restless mood of mine again. Feel like taking a swing at myself. One of the hardest things in life is to discipline oneself. Just cant get that right. The more i read and more i interact and the more i listen to classes the less educated i feel. Shit loads to learn and read about. Human ignorance is really a bane. Would love to be a lot more intuitive and aware. 26 days down this term. Have done a few things right and a few things very wrong. Mind still feels like a blank and do not feel that i am learning anything. Hopefully i am assimilating in some corner all that i read and hear about.

i am reading a lot more than before but upto satisfying levels. At the end of my MICA experience i am hoping it won't be just experience that i would be taking back with me. Hoping for a little bit more than that. To be aware of a lot more subjects. Not necessarily academic. It could be as regular a thing as coffee or history for that matter. The investment i am making at this place is huge. 2 years of my life. I am 23, i keep reminding myself of that, i need to get things into perspective. Need to remove the chalta hai attitude. Induce discipline in my life. By that i do not mean a military type regiment but something that keeps a person focused. Quite a struggle and am getting battered presently but will persist. Change after all does not happen overnight and i am not too late to start this as i know that i am a stubborn bastard at the end of the day.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Toilet Paper

Been a good past few days for me. Things have gone well and as planned out . Have some semblance of a schedule to my life. Although nothing great things are falling into place. Did decently well in my acads too. My results were out and am satisfied with my performance. Got selected for a competition at IIM Lucknow too. So will be headed for Lucknow on the 18th and will be back on campus on the 24th. Apparently the best place over there serves Kebabs at 6 bucks a plate and parathas at 3 bucks a plate. I am gonna hog over there .. i will struggle to spend 50 bucks for a meal i suppose.

The only issue is it will be terrifically cold over there. The 10 odd degrees at MICA itself is bad enough , lower temperatures in Delhi and Lucknow wil be interesting i say. Wll be going to Lucknow via delhi and will be spending a day in toto. Would be interesting since i am returning to the city after nearly 11 years. Have bad memories about delhi and absolutely detest the attitude of the people and their behaviour towards women. Will never settle in that city for sure. Lucknow will be an interesting place to explore if at all i can do that.

Not feeling too well presently, with an iffy stomach and a massively leaky nose. Finished a roll of toilet paper wiping my nose already. Bloody irritating and the heaviness in the head one getsdue to cold aint too good either.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

A better day. Good breakfast followed by decent lectures and a good presentation. Wasn't a wasteful waste today. Satisfied at the way i was. Planned out a few things for the days ahead. Hopefully will work it out as i desire. Heard a lot of music today. I used to be quite a music fanatic when i was a teenager. Wonder when i lost the habit. The radio or the record player used to be on 24/7 in my room when i was younger in my late school and early college days. Used to listen to soo much radio that had a different sort of relation that i shared with the RJ. I actuallly once was sad when i recieved news that one of my favorite RJ's was leaving the station. But all this vanished suddenly. nothing drastic caused this change. Maybe i just floated away.

Now for some random news:

1)Twinkling in the sky is a diamond star of 10 billion trillion trillion carats, astronomers have discovered.

The cosmic diamond is a chunk of crystallised carbon, 4,000 km across, some 50 light-years from the Earth in the constellation Centaurus.It's the compressed heart of an old star that was once bright like our Sun but has since faded and shrunk.Astronomers have decided to call the star "Lucy" after the Beatles song, Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds.

Twinkle twinkle

"You would need a jeweller's loupe the size of the Sun to grade this diamond," says astronomer Travis Metcalfe, of the Harvard-Smithsonian Center for Astrophysics, who led the team of researchers that discovered it.
The diamond star completely outclasses the largest diamond on Earth, the 546-carat Golden Jubilee which was cut from a stone brought out of the Premier mine in South Africa.The huge cosmic diamond - technically known as BPM 37093 - is actually a crystallised white dwarf. A white dwarf is the hot core of a star, left over after the star uses up its nuclear fuel and dies. It is made mostly of carbon.For more than four decades, astronomers have thought that the interiors of white dwarfs crystallised, but obtaining direct evidence became possible only recently.The white dwarf is not only radiant but also rings like a gigantic gong, undergoing constant pulsations.

"By measuring those pulsations, we were able to study the hidden interior of the white dwarf, just like seismograph measurements of earthquakes allow geologists to study the interior of the Earth."We figured out that the carbon interior of this white dwarf has solidified to form the galaxy's largest diamond," says Metcalfe.
Astronomers expect our Sun will become a white dwarf when it dies 5 billion years from now. Some two billion years after that, the Sun's ember core will crystallise as well, leaving a giant diamond in the centre of the solar system.

"Our Sun will become a diamond that truly is forever," says Metcalfe.

source: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/3492919.stm



2)Indian Governement Declares 2007 as Water Year

The Centre has announced the year 2007 as "Water Year" with a view to addressing the water-related issues and to launch a massive awareness programme all over the country.


3) 2007 predicted to be the warmest year ever.

What with New York experiencing a temperature of 21C when it is supposed to be snowing there at this time of the year.

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Monday, January 08, 2007

Shield


Many times i question myself on how good i am ? And then i have days like these. Where the whole day i was as constructive as the pigeon who tries desperately to get into my room. Even the pigeon manages to reach its goal sometimes but i just remain the same lazy asshole. Was a beautiful cold day where i could have done a lot of things. But i wasted my time away with only something constructive towards the night.

After all that i lament on how things could be better or different but i simply am stuck in this state. Nothing inspires me to really push myself. Even after all those promises to self that i will do better i just stagnate as before. Never perform to even 50 % of my potential. Reacting to everything that happens to me. Give big talks to myself but not execute any. It is sometimes mind fucks me too much.

Am i thinking about this too much? I do not know. There is no point giving any excuse either. Excuses just serve as a shield in this world. Everything can be achieved. Keeping no expectations for tomorrow. I miss my girl too.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

A Change of Calender


After much hoopla over the change of calenders , we are now well into 2007. 1996 seems like it happened yesterday. Time simply flies and new years always give me the feeling that we have a very short existence. Every moment we spend is extremely precious but then we hardly ever live for the moment.

Personally had a very good new years catching up with old college friends over really good liquor and jolly conversation. Stopped believing in resolutions so never made one this year. Anyways life is so unpredictable that it defeats the purpose of being to stuck to one particular rule. Back on campus, college life has resumed on slow pace. People over here now seem to be more relaxed about each other and their presence. The winter chill makes the night nice and snugly and the afternoons extremely pleasant. The sun feels good on the skin.

The joy of running on a virtually empty road with wilderness on either side with your out of control breath for company is total bliss. The joy derived from pushing oneself simply cannot be beaten by anything else. I have started going for a run again and hopefully will pursue it throughout this term.

I am trying to change the pattern of existence this term. Do things with a little more control over them . Getting a little more organised. Having a little bit more of self control. Try and gain some knowledge. Term has just started and am trying to set the pace as of now.

I feel i have matured a bit more over the past few months. Feel a hell lot more comfortable with the things around me and the way i am. I think i comprehend things better. Though i really do not have a fresh perspective at issues but that's what i am trying to develop.

Looking ahead this year is going to hold only personal challenges for me. Will be spending this whole year in this place excepting the summer and considering this place it is simply a matter of self improvement. Do not have any expectations from this year too. I have every opportunity i need in my hands, it boils down merely to the question of whether i will act?