I have lost the ability to finish a book . I have started 4 books this summer and haven't finished a single one. But then it does not bother me as earlier. I used to get worked up on a whole lot of issues , indulge in intense thought over the matter and finally do something which always was not proportional to the though put behind it and fell short. But then over the summer i have learned an important lesson of thinking and pondering lesser and acting and reacting more.
Not bothered of making mistakes, in fact it helps to think lesser than i usually do and act as fast as i can since whatever mistake i commit helps me refine my direction. I am trying not to let people and their loose talk not affect me. Strangely i do get affected by what people say and think about me even if they are mere acquaintances. A close friend can really damage my self confidence unknowingly.But then the same hasn't been the case the past few months with a lot of acid talk hardly inciting a thought in me. I have become more narcissistic over the period of my internship and i ain't apologetic or regretful about it. MICA life in second year has been slow at times but mostly well placed. I am in love with my room and the privacy it fetches me. I guess that in itself is something i cherish and has been responsible for my cheerfulness. With a roommate always around everyone behaves subconsciously in a certain guarded manner.
Just the start i wanted this year. :)
