Been a while. I indulged in flirtations by starting some other blogs which are now reduced to a mere stastic. Habits once formed are difficult to let go. Hence, i am back to this lovely blog. To rediscover some earlier habits which were responsible for me being stronger, fearless and sharper. To rediscover writing. To rediscover my desire.
The world has changed so dramatically and i am struggling to keep up. Letting myself get raped by circumstances, constantly embattled by fear of the unknown and drowning the voice of my heart. I come back to thee, the reflection of my thoughts and a way i can reconnect.
Back on the path due to my common soul who knows who she is and believes in me. Of promises to her and worse still promises to myself that went un-kept. I went by without fighting hard, memories of earlier victories just a haze, i searched and searched for that injection of enthusiasm. The quick fix panacea to my troubles. All of 27 and yet uncertain, and letting things flow.
A spark has ignited a tiny flame recently. I battle to nourish it into the fire that will drive me again. A fire to light up the engulfing darkness. To give myself a chance. To take a risk. To hear my heart again!
