After having essayed an almost lyrical paragraph enlisting the blankness that i face currently, a chance slip of fingers and a hitherto unknown shortcut on the keyboard caused my text box to blank out. The words as ephemeral as my various dreams and currently untraceable. The first rays of early morning light, slowly caress the darkness under my eyelids and nudge me out of a beautiful world. The complete ignorance induced by sleep and the limitless aspirations of our dreams makes it a very comforting experience only to awaken to a sense of despair. A lack of understanding of my routine and the reason for my persistence.
I have no clue what i am destined for and how i am going to achieve or what i want to achieve. At the prime of my youth i am absolutely clueless. The precious time that i have been bestowed with is evaporating away. As directionless as spilled water, i am just flowing wherever i do not see an obstruction and doing nothing to overcome any obstructions on my path. Comfortable with the controlled environment that i have built for myself but struggling in my own skin. The dichotomy has caught up with me again and i am struggling to float with the lack of purpose and the constant satiating of immediate desires causing me to be a slave rather than have any sense of liberation.
I seek a reason. A desire to be up every morning and face a day brimming with energy to accomplish what i desire. To chase!
