A New Look

Tinkering again.Weird this! Constant feeling of being stuck.  My past few posts have all been talking about this. Been like this for a year now. As my 26th birthday was nearing i was taken aback at the thought that a year had disappeared. All i did was react and simply flow along with whatever came by and offered no resistance whatsoever.  It did shake me off my unknowing slumber.

Taking control now. Little by little.

Anyone

A pertinent need for escape. All around me, in the eyes of so many people whom i encounter. A fight from within against this need. Some who have succeeded are lifeless, a resignation to the current state reflected in their eyes. Why is the world in such a disarray? Why are we so scared of the unknown?

The route to happiness is clear to everyone. But very few have the legs for it. A simple life yet complicated by our discipline less mind. Struggling to find innocence around me. Everything comes wrapped with ulterior motives. I need to change. Let it rain, these drops of clarity and hope i catch it before it gets muddled in these vast expanses of human insanity. If we let instincts over power us and heed and reward each and every instinct will it make us happier or simply an animal? Do we use our intellectual prowess to justify all our instincts and tame them just like we are trying to tame nature? Why is there the strong need to control in us? Why do we need to be in control of our lives, our present, our future? Why do we desire a purpose in life and are lost and miserable without it?

Anyone?

Alive and Kicking

The homing device in my head had gone for a huge spin headed towards nowhere. All kinds of tinkering and tossing around has finally resulted in some kind of alignment. Gaining of conciousness. Realisation of a purpose . Snowballing into some kind of momentum. Desire and inclination to discover the tempo. Smooth whirring sounds in the head. Clarity. Feels good to be alive.

What do i chase?

After having essayed an almost lyrical paragraph enlisting the blankness that i face currently, a chance slip of fingers and a hitherto unknown shortcut on the keyboard caused my text box to blank out. The words as ephemeral as my various dreams and currently untraceable. The first rays of early morning light, slowly caress the darkness under my eyelids and nudge me out of a beautiful world. The complete ignorance induced by sleep and the limitless aspirations of our dreams makes it a very comforting experience only to awaken to a sense of despair. A lack of understanding of my routine and the reason for my persistence.

I have no clue what i am destined for and how i am going to achieve or what i want to achieve. At the prime of my youth i am absolutely clueless. The precious time that i have been bestowed with is evaporating away. As directionless as spilled water, i am just flowing wherever i do not see an obstruction and doing nothing to overcome any obstructions on my path. Comfortable with the controlled environment that i have built for myself but struggling in my own skin. The dichotomy has caught up with me again and i am struggling to float with the lack of purpose and the constant satiating of immediate desires causing me to be a slave rather than have any sense of liberation.

I seek a reason. A desire to be up every morning and face a day brimming with energy to accomplish what i desire. To chase!

Education & the nature of work

True education is that which makes us humble. Humility is the true essence of knowledge and the realisation of the fact that we learn throughout our lives. Higher education brings with it a sense of pride that masks this humility and makes people arrogant and supremely confident. Higher education does nothing to inculcate any sense of better living or conduct. In fact, i have found the uneducated to be most considerate amongst us. They value what they have and they value their relationships. They do not have a scale defined by degrees, by which they measure up people but it is done purely by deeds and actions. I have seen others and have myself felt false pride of being a graduate from a prestigious institution. The fact remains that the place does not define me rather only my actions there define me. And my actions throughout my life will define me.

Speaking of actions, i have always truly believed that man essentially finds pleasure when he is creating something. Commerce in the olden days was all about creation and barter. Everyone has a skillset that is valuable to the community as a whole and exploiting it gives him true happiness. Therein lies happiness in being a mere cobbler or a construction worker or a farmer all of whom use their two hands to create. Good old manual labour that has been replaced by the cubicle that is fast making us forget the tools of survival. The pure epiphany of facing the odds of nature and being shaped by its rules makes one harmonious with a deeper sense of being that we all are in a constant search of.

Therin lies the restlessness of my hands.

Amen!

The way we make it

Racing thoughts, uncontrolled and directionless leading to neither a conclusion or slowing down in anyway. Break! Relax and then a complete void. A void that is not empty but fulfilling. A calmness sets upon the mind. The riot within is purged replaced by a comforting calm. And i am at peace. That's all it takes.

Knock! Knock!

What you resist persists - Carl Jung

Starting Line

Just need to focus. Be in the moment and most importantly, be myself. Honest to the core. A lot to learn and a lot to live :)

Mere Sentences

Rise

This is for me. Just plain sentences. Words strung up together. Make me feel, ache, cry and express. No thought, no flow. No objective and no point to make or prove. I know everything, I am conscious about every idea i believe in and i do things wrong consciously by succumbing to my mind. So here goes, mere sentences.

Have a heart.

Mould your mind.

A lot to learn and a lot to live.

Be awake.

Complete honesty towards oneself.

Be in the moment.

Focus.

Live life.

Discipline mind and body.

Try and control your life.

Get a Grip.

Make your destiny.

There is always a choice.

Make your choice and not let it be made.

Be conscious of everything you do.

Invest your complete presence in everything you do.

Respect elders and traditions.

We are what we think.

Be persistent.

Be involved.

Go the extra mile.

Never lose hope.

Positivity in everything.

Smile.

Give experience a chance.

Lose inhibitions and ego.


RISE