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I just typed a paragraph and then deleted it . I did this two times already. Will this para be a third time? I feel like questioning......myself, the world, anyone for that matter... but i also know the answer wont satisfy me. Nothing will. Humans are not designed to be satisfied. We seem to be the only animals on this planet who do not function primarily by instincts but search for a logic. But what if this logic does not strike us. Then whatever we do without this inherent sense of logic , soon appears to be logical to us and we go about this chore in a mechanical manner. Convincing ourselves by saying that hey so many people are doing the same thing so there must be some logic to it. But that is precisely what the other people are thinking too.

Is there any reprive from this situation? Will mere realisation of this situation enough for freedom from this dogma? Am i asking too many questions? A code of conduct , mostly devised and refined by some very clever men , inorder to control and gain power over fellow humans governs the modern civil society. But occassionally our true nature comes out and we get a peak on to our other side... full of extreme emotions of jealousy, love , hatred and intended violence. So is essentially everyone a loner at heart?

What if we dont want to make the best of what we get and want what is not supposedly ours ? What if i want immortality or wisdom to understand? Who decided the restrictions .. mere biological factors, supernatural factors or are we plain stupid and aint thinking right?

Whom should i respect? Do i really need to........